Committed.

Committed

We commit ourselves to our job, our spouses and family but I am working on committing myself to God.   There is only one God, the God who created the heavens and the earth and all that is in it.  To him do I commit my life.  I have had so many ups and downs, sometimes more down than ups. I have struggled trying to raise 2 daughters by myself, sometimes maintaining 2 jobs while going back to school. It was very hard but I lived through it. I have been evicted more times than I care to remember, But in the words of Maya Angelo " still I rise". 

In good times and bad times I have learned to call on God. I never had friends that I could run to and ask for help. I do know however that if someone decided to help me that it was God who sent them. I remember being in my 20's and I only had one child and without a job. I was home with nothing to eat and wondering what will I feed myself and my child for the next day. I felt I had no one to call and was too proud to ask anyone for help. Well" I went to bed that night  with nothing in my cabinets or refrigerator to eat. The very next day I woke up to someone ringing my doorbell. To my surprise it was a friend who I had not seen nor spoke to in 2 weeks. Out of the blue she decided to send her daughter to my house with a basket of food. I was so surprised because I did not tell her my troubles nor did I call her to ask for anything. I could only ask the question " how on earth or what made her do this for me. My only reasoning is that it was God who gave her the inclination to bring me that basket of food. This shows me that almighty God is very real and he truly cares about me. Not only does he care about me but he cares about his children, ( we are his children) This world belongs to God and he loves and cares about all of his creation. What he does not have a love for is wickedness and sin. Job 38:10 States" by the breath of God frost is given: and the breadth of the waters is straightened. 11, also by watering he wearies the thick cloud: he scatters his bright cloud; 12, and it is turned round about by his counsels: that they may do whatsoever he commands them upon the face of the world in the earth 13, he causes it to come , whether for correction, or for his land , or for mercy. 41, who provides for the raven his food, when his young ones cry unto God. 39, wilt thou hunt the prey for the lion? Or fill the appetite of the young lions. Luke 13:34  states " Oh Jerusalem, Jerusalem, which kills the prophets and stones them that are sent to thee, how often would I have gathered thy children together as a hen doth gather her brood under her wings and ye would not". As I am writing this I am understanding the love that God has for us and the love that we should have for others. I know that when I get angry I tend to be angry at everyone and everything.  Being angry at everyone and everything is very unlike  God. God says for us to love one another just like he loves us.John 13:34 says " a new commandment I give you' that you love one another, as I have loved you, so you must love one another. By this everyone will know that you are my disciple's if you love one another. When we make it our responsibility to hate we  are showing God that we hate his creation. As if to say that we do not care about his commandments. The bible ask the question" how can we say we love God who we have not seen but hate our fellow man who we see each day. At times I find myself having hateful thoughts but thankfully God is a forgiving God and as I commit myself to him he is teaching me to love my neighbor as myself. It is hard especially when someone is displaying hate towards me but when I think of all the moments when Christ has had my back in situations. The times when he has proven over and over that he loves me, ( undeserving as I am, as we all are) who am I to harbor hate when someone like Jesus Christ from the beginning has only showed me love. Yesterday I was talking to a co- worker and I told her about a company that I heard of that puts God first, family second and business third. Her response was" I'm sorry but family comes first for me, I said to her" what do you mean? It is God who gave you your family. I don't think she grasped what I meant.  The point is that whatever we acquire in life or whoever we are " God gave it all to us. Whether we are African,  European, Asian, Spanish, Arabic, Indian, rich or poor God gives it to us all. None of us can change our DNA and I don't know of anyone who wants to.  

Committing myself to God is not easy, I have to be forgiving just like him and God knows it can be a hard task. I must love others just like he loves us. That's another hard task. I am a work in progress. I write this blog to help myself and hopefully help someone else. Not only do I have the bible as an example of Gods love but my experiences in life also serves as examples of his love towards me. So I have no other alternative but to thank him and try my best to honor and uphold his words because it is he who has kept me this long. It is he who has protected me from harm. There is no one else who came to my rescue but God.