Breaking free and breaking forth

Today I went to church. For some reason I had a Great desire to not be there. As we wait for  service to start I noticed how cold it was.  To pass time I sat on the sofa reading the book of Jeremiah.  My feet felt as thou I had no socks or shoes on. I was so sleepy and cold I could barely keep my eyes open.  I looked around the walls and all the televisions were fixed on these 2 words break free. I thought nothing about it until I was able to sit down inside the service.  As I sat there the word break free came into my mind and thoughts. I wanted to break free from all the negative thoughts which I have each time I enter church. I know that the church is more than just a building because we as mankind cannot build a house to contain God. However his word says that we are to gather in his name. By gathering together we get a close encounter with Christ and the word of God. Church is suppose to inspire us to continue in his word. The bible says " if 2 or more are gathered in his name so also is he. This 1 sentence is the only thing which kept me from not leaving.  

Maybe I'm crazy but church as a child was about the word of God being taught to all people and language. Lately I feel as thou I need to read for myself because listening to the pastor will not teach me the word. If I was someone who was unable to read and write I would be very lost. The bible has 66 chapters but week after week and pastor after pastor all I hear is the sermon of Paul. I have to ask " is the bible only about paul. I once studied with Jehovah's witnesses and we only read from the watchtower. So here again my learning is being controlled. So I stopped my studies with them and years later tried the Mormons. I had to let that go simple because I was totally lost on their bible which contained names and chapters that I had never heard of. Many many years ago I went to a catholic school!! I remember the statue of Mary on the wall and us saying the hail Mary. I am thankful that those years did not last long. I know that the bible says " we should not have statues or anything that pertains to heaven or earth or the sea below. Exodus 20:4 thou shalt not make unto thee any graven image, or any likeness of anything that is in heaven above, or that is in the earth beneath, or that is in the water under  the earth.

So how do I break free and what am I breaking free from? Breaking free for me means breaking free  from the grips of worry and insecurities, and everything which separates us from God. Worrying about what others have to say or think. I cannot control other people's thoughts. Nor can I control what they choose to say, but I know today I felt good about life. Understanding that being well dressed should not make me feel better or being dressed in rags should not cause me to feel less than human. I know that people whether in church or on the street judge each other based on our outward appearance. People gossip, giggle and talk. Yet the bible says for us to not gossip.Romans 1:29  Their lives became full of every kind of wickedness, sin, greed, hate, envy, 

murder, quarreling, deception, malicious behavior, and gossip. I wanted to break free from all the years I allowed fear and sin to rule or have control of my life. I was so busy talking about Satan and his capabilities that I did not realize how much power I kept giving him. I had to realize that instead of focusing my thoughts on Satan I had to focus on God and what God can do and what God has done. Satan tries to keep us down and he works through people. People entice each other through their misery loving company routine, they  also entice through their lies which others seek to listen to and believe. I know that worrying, insecurities, lies and all those things which Satan hovers over us is not from God. Today I am letting everyone know that I use to be afraid of talking my dreams into existence. I did not want Satan to hear and forfeit my dreams. How freaking dumb of me. I was more afraid of the devil than of God. God is the only one who can forfeit my dreams, and my life. As people we tend to think we know others when we don't even know our own self. So often I have passed judgement on others and get very upset when others do the same thing. I have found myself being a self righteous Pharisee.  I am breaking free of passing judgement on others and being a self righteous Pharisee. 

Mathew7:2 for in the same way you judge others you will be judged and in the same measure you use it will be measured to you. Luke 18:11 The Pharisee stood by himself and prayed; God, I thank you that I am not like other people, robbers, evil doers, adulterers, or even like this tax collector. The bible does tell us that Jesus committed no sin. So it is possible for us as people to not live in sin. John 8:3-11 And the scribes and Pharisees bought unto him a woman taken into adultery; and when they had set her in the midst, they say unto him, Master, this woman was taken into adultery, in the very act. Now Moses in the law commanded us, that such should be stoned: but what sayest thou? This they said, tempting him, that they might have an accusation to accuse him. But Jesus stopped down, and with his finger wrote on the ground, as though he heard them not. So when they continued asking him, he lifted up himself, and said unto them, he that is without sin among you, let him cast the first stone. And again he stooped down and wrote on the ground, and they which heard it, being convicted by their own conscience, went out one by one, beginning at the eldest, even unto the last: and Jesus was left alone, and the woman standing in the midst. When Jesus had lifted up himself, and saw none but the woman, he said unto her, woman, where are those thine accusers? Hath no man condemned thee? She said, no man ,Lord. And Jesus said unto her, neither do I condemn thee: go and sin no more. John 5:14 and after that, Jesus found him in the temple, and said unto him, behold, thou art made whole; sin no more, lest a worse thing come unto thee.

So breaking free from the bondage of sin is not anything we alone can do,  Hebrews 4:12 but the word of God is quick and powerful, and sharper than any two edged sword piercing even to the dividing usunder of soul and spirit  and of the joints and marrow and is a discerner of the thoughts and intents of the heart. We need to read on a continuous basis and stay in constant prayer  because that is our key to breaking free. So it is possible to break free from every thing that Satan uses to hold us back. John 10:10  Jesus said, I came that you may have life and have it more abundantly. John 14:27 He also said, my peace I give you, not as the world gives do I give to you. Let not your heart be troubled neither let it be afraid.